Doing it Right...

There seems to be a common theme with regards to my weight loss.  It's the fear that I'm not doing it right.  This kind of goes along with the "not good enough" post last week.  I seem to hit quite a few plateaus and I seem to retain lots of water weight. 

But, in all honesty, I think my problem is the scale.  I rely too much on the scale to tell me how I'm progressing.  I weigh in every day, sometimes two and even three times a day.  It's obsessive, I know.  I know that I need to stop.  The problem I'm facing is the fear that if I don't weigh in every day, then I won't lose any weight.  However, the reality is that I am weighing in every day and I'm still not losing weight.  And, then I'm changing my program too often to find one that's truly effective.  It's quite frustrating. 

So, here's the plan.  Tomorrow is my normal weigh in day.  I will weigh in tomorrow morning and then my scale is getting put away.  I will keep my calories where they are and work really hard to stay within them.  Next friday, I will weigh in again and then the scale gets put away.  Let's see if I can do this.  Initially, my idea was to weigh in at the end of a 6 week program, but you and I both know that's not going to happen.  Progress, people...baby steps...

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